Armed Taliban militants were looking for Shah. They knew he worked as an interpreter for the United States government, and came to his provincial home at night. â€œSomeone inside worked for the U.S. Army!â€ they shouted, threatening to shoot down the door.
Shah had already left for Kabul, where he is now in hiding. But he believes he is a hunted man. â€œIâ€™m not feeling safe here anymore,â€ said Shah, whose application for a special immigrant visa to the United States is still in the works.
â€œThe Taliban say they are not taking revenge, and they are forgiving everybody,â€ he said. â€œBut I canâ€™t believe them. Why did they come to my house looking for me?â€
There are thousands like Shah, stuck in Afghanistan under a capricious and unpredictable Taliban rule, who did not make it onto U.S. military evacuation flights â€” those who worked for the U.S. Army or the government, and their families, and who were eligible for U.S. humanitarian visas. They know they are potential targets as the Taliban tighten their grip since taking over Kabul fully this week.
Taliban leaders have pledged to allow those with visas to leave once they reopen the main airport, which remained closed to commercial flights on Friday.
But those like Shah doubt the pledges of a group that they feel they cannot trust and that has ruled Afghanistan ruthlessly before. Trying to leave â€” or showing a special immigrant visa â€” could itself expose them to danger if the Taliban renege on their promises.
So with the Taliban firmly in control on the street, they have gone into hiding. One U.S. government contractor and humanitarian visa applicant said he had gone underground â€” literally â€” with his pregnant wife and 1-year-old daughter in a system of tunnels. He said he didnâ€™t believe Taliban promises and didnâ€™t plan to risk leaving his hiding place.
There are also potentially hundreds of thousands of other Afghans â€” aid agency workers, officials from the defunct government, media employees, prominent women â€” who are fearful and laying low.
They are also eager to leave. This week, after evacuation flights from Kabul ended, there were reports of hundreds of people massing at border crossings with Iran and Pakistan.
â€œItâ€™s because the country is collapsing,â€ said Astrid Sletten, a foreign aid worker who has remained in Kabul. â€œAnd everybody has a sister or daughter, and wondering what it is going to be like to be living under a Taliban regime.â€
She added: â€œI think some people are literally saying Iâ€™d rather die than live in a Taliban regime.â€
Despite Taliban pledges that no punishment would be exacted on anyone, many Afghans question the ability of the Taliban leadership to control their battle-hardened fighters.
Former government officials, aid workers and diplomats say Taliban leaders have barely managed to keep their well-armed rank-and-file in check. And there is deep uncertainty about when even that relative restraint will end.
On Friday, an uneasy calm settled on Kabul, four days after the Taliban took over and the last American forces left. Afghans waited for the Taliban to announce its new government.
In Kabul, the few women venturing out have been able to wear head scarves, rather than the face-covering burqa the Taliban imposed during its previous rule, and several dozen protested outside the palace, demanding the inclusion of women in a new government.
The Talibanâ€™s leaders are still talking about showing inclusiveness. But they have made clear in filling lower-ranking positions so far that they are choosing from among their own.
Kabul residents interviewed by phone described a pervasive fear as Taliban rule steadily changed life around them.
And as the economy spiraled deeper into crisis â€” with sharply rising prices and dwindling hard currency â€” many say they are eager to leave, particularly those eligible for the U.S. Special Immigration Visa, an emergency humanitarian visa that has been granted to interpreters and others who worked for the U.S. Army.
Their numbers remain unclear. Nobody â€” neither the U.S. government nor human rights groups â€” has an exact figure for these Afghans who have a direct connection with official America, but who did not make it out.
The Association of Wartime Allies, an advocacy group, estimates that there are 118,000 Afghans, including their families, who are still in Afghanistan and eligible for the visa.
The group wrote in a report at the end of August that â€œit is reasonable that nearly 1 percent of the Afghan population has in some way worked for, or are family members of those who worked for, the United States.â€ Afghanistanâ€™s population is estimated at about 40 million.
â€œThere are hundreds of thousands who remain trapped,â€ Adam Bates, a lawyer with the International Refugee Assistance Project, said Tuesday during a video news conference in the United States. â€œThe majority of our clients were not able to leave Afghanistan on the evacuation flights.â€
How real their danger is remains unclear. There have been scattered reports of the Taliban carrying out executions as they swept the country, particularly at Spin Boldak on the Pakistan border â€” where 40 people associated with the government were killed, according to the Afghan Independent Human Rights Commission.
Since taking Kabul on Aug. 15, the Taliban have conducted house-to-house searches and made arrests. Their methods rely heavily on intimidation. They have announced to family members of media workers, for instance, that they are looking for them, according to Human Rights Watch.
â€œThe fact that they are looking for them is also a threat,â€™â€™ said Patricia Gossman of Human Rights Watch. â€œItâ€™s the way a police state functions,â€ she added.
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â€œThey have unleashed a lot of people who are interested in revenge,â€ she said. â€œPeople are eager to flee because it is not going to be survivable.â€
For working Afghans attempting to adapt to Taliban rule, preliminary contacts have been dismaying. The new order means exclusion or segregation of women, a brutality of manner, and, always, the presence of weapons.
In the provinces, where new administrative appointments have been made, the Taliban appear to have relied only on themselves.
â€œCaretaker appointments at various levels â€” provincial, district, department and ministerial â€” have so far been drawn (almost) exclusively from the Talibanâ€™s own ranks, with no sign of non-Taliban appointments,â€ the Afghanistan Analysts Network wrote on Wednesday.
An aide to a high-ranking official of the former government, who had been meeting with the Taliban, said by telephone from Kabul that his bossâ€™s meetings with the new authorities had stopped.
Meanwhile, Afghans like Shah, the former interpreter, said that in some places the situation was terrifying. â€œOne Talib will kill 10 people, and there is no court,â€ Shah said. â€œThis is not a prepared government.â€
An aid worker still in Kabul was similarly fearful.
â€œI get the sense that those they are putting in charge are trying to stopâ€ random acts of brutality, the aid worker said. â€œBut I also get the sense that they have little control.â€
Some aid agency employees who have continued to work were disturbed by their encounters with the new authorities, and plan to leave Afghanistan as soon as possible.
The Taliban have encouraged them to continue working, these officials said, but there is always an air of menace.
â€œThey always come to our compound with their guns and armed guards,â€™â€™ an aid worker in a northern province said by phone.
They were pressuring his agency to hire Taliban members, and to concentrate their aid work on long-held Taliban areas, he said, and would not allow women staff members to work.
â€œThere are many women who donâ€™t have hope,â€ said a female aid worker in Kabul who is attempting to leave. â€œIf you want to live, you have to work. We donâ€™t have bread at home to feed our children.â€
â€œHow are we going to survive in this country?â€ she asked.