Melissa Etheridge on shedding her son to opioid habit: ‘He made his decisions’

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By Lauren Sarner

Melissa Etheridge has opened up about coping along with her son’s loss of life. 

The Grammy successful singer, 62, misplaced her oldest son, Beckett Cypher, at 21 in 2020 from causes associated to opioid habit. 

In Could 2020, Etheridge stated on social media, “At this time I joined the tons of of 1000’s of households who’ve misplaced family members to opioid habit. He will probably be missed by those that beloved him, his household and buddies. My coronary heart is damaged. I’m grateful for many who have reached out with condolences and I Really feel their love and honest grief.”

Etheridge ended her message by promising followers that she would “sing once more” quickly, as a result of, “It has all the time healed me.” 

Etheridge, who got here out as homosexual in 1993, had Beckett along with her ex-partner Julie Cypher. The previous couple even have a 26-year-old daughter, Bailey Jean. Etheridge additionally has twins along with her different former associate, Tammy Lynn Michaels – son Miller and daughter Johnnie – who had been born in 2006. 

“You realize, the occasions I used to all the time textual content with him and discuss with him,” she stated within the latest episode of Hoda Kotb’s “Making House” podcast, referring to Beckett. 

“And so, it’s like he’s there. I’m like, ‘OK, good morning, you recognize, be careful for me all day.’ ”

Etheridge, who has been married to “Nurse Jackie” co-creator Linda Wallem, 62, since 2014, has had different hardships in her life, together with battling breast most cancers in 2004. 

She launched the memoir, “Speaking to My Angels,” in September, and stated the ebook’s title pertains to speaking to her late son, and late father. 

“I misplaced my father once I was 30. I’d already been form of pulling on his power and asking that,” she continued on the podcast. 

“And so, you recognize, I actually really feel surrounded. So I name it speaking to my angels. That’s why the ebook is titled that as a result of that power, these lives, these souls that I’ve recognized which have been part of my coronary heart, are nonetheless supporting me.”

The singer additionally opened up about how she struggles with guilt over her son’s loss of life. 

“After I misplaced my son, I realized how a lot my capability for love was,” she stated. “Not solely loving him and lacking him and being OK, however loving myself sufficient not to enter main melancholy and guilt and disgrace which so many households that lose family members to opioid habit do.”

She stated the “disgrace” from it’s too massive.

“It’s big,” she added.

Etheridge additionally confessed that there are some days when coping with the lack of her son is sort of a “shadow” that comes over her. 

“And I discover myself pondering, ‘Oh, what if? What if I had finished this? What if I had solely finished that?’ ” she stated. “And that doesn’t serve me, and it causes me ache. So my follow is to go, ‘No … he has gone from this bodily world … he’s a part of that bigger nonphysical area. After I’m in a darkish area, I’m away from all of my family members,” she added.

“It’s my job to search out my area once more, of loving myself, going, ‘No, no, I did the very best I might. And he made his decisions.’ ”